Ok, please don't hate on my grammar or spelling.. I'm really good at writing correct, but English is not my first language, and it has a whole lot of different rules than Norwegian. It's Norwegian I'm good at. In Norwegian we write norwegian with a small kapital letter.
I am a girl of 21, born in 1990. I have a son who was born in april 2011. I am alone with him because the father is expelled from the country. Reason? His life is not threatened enough where his originally from.
I live in a small one room apartment, close to sentrum in a town of 173000 inhabitans.
I usually have a lot of different things on my mind, and I enjoy writing. So I hope you will enjoy reading.
mandag 9. januar 2012
Diet
Hey dear readers! Before I was pregnant I weighed 55 kilos, but my ideal weight is 50. It's not a low weight because I'm only 158 cm short. But during my pregnancy I ate a lot of cheesedoodles, snickers and I was a McDonalds regular. So by the time I gave birth to my son I weighed 80 friggin kilos!!
A lot of it was baby and water and all those things, so I lost about 10 kilos the first weeks. But it stopped there, and I'm still stuck at 70. Being so short, every kilo gained is critical to my appearance.
Also, being slim and beautiful is very important to me. But everytime I start dieting I get obsessed by the thought of eatig as little as possible. If you are breastfeeding you cannot power-diet, because you will start burning bodyfat to produse milk, which will release toxins that are stored in your fat to the milk and poison your child. So I waited. Now my baby is soon 9 months and I only breastfeed him in the morning and night. I talked to the nurse about loosing a lot of weight while still breastfeeding and she said that it's ok as far as his just drinking so small amounts. But she told me to diet healthy and continue eating, of course. She is a nurse, after all.
I'm also paying my debt these days, saving all my money and paying as much as possible. I get around 18000 kr every month. Houserent is 7500 kr, plus elektric. I have a bill of 33000 kr, the sum of bills neglected through many years of poverty, 15000 kr is study loan, so it's not so urgent. But I got a letter before christmas with this sum, saying that the government will start retrieving the money directly from my account if I don't pay. And my dream is to pay all my bills, I've been paying around 10000 since I had my baby. Now I've paid 11000 during desember and this month, and I hope I can pay another 3000 this month. So not buying food for myself, which is an insane expence here in Norway, is really good for my economy.
So, I desided that I wanted to start my traditional diet, that is eating a small meal everyday and try to get as much exersice as possible. I'm quite used to this lifestyle, because I used to be a poor student from the age of 16 - 18, living by myself with very low funds. During a period of time when I was 17 I tried to save money to travel and ate only a small meal every 3rd day. I love walking and it has allways been natural for me to walk all over town. Also, the time I got pregnant I got so nausius that I spent everyday vomiting and went from 55 to 45 kilos in about two months.
As a coupple of days went by after deciding to finally start my diet, the usual obsession of loosing weight came over me. I realized that I didn't need the everyday small portion of rice that I had planned. Why rice? Because I have lots of it and it's easy and cheap. I started counting calories and learned that if I exersise two hours a day (I have a lot of uphills right outside my house, it's great with the baggy), which I do, plus I try to work out at home as well, I will burn 2600 kalories every day. I desided to try to consume less than 100 kalories every day. One carrot is about 80 so thats what I eat. If I stick to this I will reduse 1 - 2 kilos a week, maybe even more. I am still breastfeeding as well. Now I know a lot of people will think that what I'm doing is stupid and crazy and kind of mentally sick. And that I will gain all the weight back. But to me it makes perfect sence. It's not the first time I've done it and it allways works. After I have redused the 15-20 kilos I want to loose, i will calkulate a diet and a work out routine that will make me consume and burn the same amount of calories everyday, in order to not gain the weight again.
Having control of my looks is very important to me, and looking so out of shape is completely heart braking. I'm also in really bad shape training-wise. The body goes through huge changes during a pregnancy, and during the last three months you can't really move around to much. When the baby is newborn you won't have time to think about working out. So I realized one day that I'm loosing my breath by changing the bed... So I can't really just run to the gym and start working that threadmill. I would last 2 minutes.. That's why I'm taking a shortcut using my crazy diet and trying to get my cardio going.. I know not eating won't allow me to get in good shape or build any muscles, but that's really not my priority at the moment.
So today I walked around with my three-wheeled baggy in the goddamn new snow, which got me sweating forreal. Later I did pilates, before I just started dancing around and doing any kind of moves that came to my mind, just to keep the body moving. I jumped down from times to times and did pull ups. In the evening I ate my carrot. The only time I can actually feel the hunger is in the night. It's really hard to sleep on an empty stoumach. I keep drinking plenty water but that makes me have to run to the toilet constantly. So I just watch my movie and klench my teeth. Squeezing my hated stoumach fat makes me absolutely not think about eating! I couldn't imagine.. The real pain of diet is not actually the kind of emptyness you feel in your stoumach, it's the headaches, fatigue, moodswings and trouble consentrating that comes later on. But I can handle it. The norwegian WW2 heroes of telemark are my heroes. They walked for weeks on ski and hardly ate, and then camped out in huts for months eating rain moss they found under the snow.. They lost a lot of weight, unwillingly. The body is created to handle this kind of treatment, that's why we store the fat in the first place.
I don't have a scale to check my weight. Maybe I'll try to find a cheap one, how much does one cost anyway? I've never been big on checking my weight, I prefer checking my reflection, it tells me more about how I look than a number. But now it would be interesting to see.
A lot of it was baby and water and all those things, so I lost about 10 kilos the first weeks. But it stopped there, and I'm still stuck at 70. Being so short, every kilo gained is critical to my appearance.
Also, being slim and beautiful is very important to me. But everytime I start dieting I get obsessed by the thought of eatig as little as possible. If you are breastfeeding you cannot power-diet, because you will start burning bodyfat to produse milk, which will release toxins that are stored in your fat to the milk and poison your child. So I waited. Now my baby is soon 9 months and I only breastfeed him in the morning and night. I talked to the nurse about loosing a lot of weight while still breastfeeding and she said that it's ok as far as his just drinking so small amounts. But she told me to diet healthy and continue eating, of course. She is a nurse, after all.
I'm also paying my debt these days, saving all my money and paying as much as possible. I get around 18000 kr every month. Houserent is 7500 kr, plus elektric. I have a bill of 33000 kr, the sum of bills neglected through many years of poverty, 15000 kr is study loan, so it's not so urgent. But I got a letter before christmas with this sum, saying that the government will start retrieving the money directly from my account if I don't pay. And my dream is to pay all my bills, I've been paying around 10000 since I had my baby. Now I've paid 11000 during desember and this month, and I hope I can pay another 3000 this month. So not buying food for myself, which is an insane expence here in Norway, is really good for my economy.
So, I desided that I wanted to start my traditional diet, that is eating a small meal everyday and try to get as much exersice as possible. I'm quite used to this lifestyle, because I used to be a poor student from the age of 16 - 18, living by myself with very low funds. During a period of time when I was 17 I tried to save money to travel and ate only a small meal every 3rd day. I love walking and it has allways been natural for me to walk all over town. Also, the time I got pregnant I got so nausius that I spent everyday vomiting and went from 55 to 45 kilos in about two months.
As a coupple of days went by after deciding to finally start my diet, the usual obsession of loosing weight came over me. I realized that I didn't need the everyday small portion of rice that I had planned. Why rice? Because I have lots of it and it's easy and cheap. I started counting calories and learned that if I exersise two hours a day (I have a lot of uphills right outside my house, it's great with the baggy), which I do, plus I try to work out at home as well, I will burn 2600 kalories every day. I desided to try to consume less than 100 kalories every day. One carrot is about 80 so thats what I eat. If I stick to this I will reduse 1 - 2 kilos a week, maybe even more. I am still breastfeeding as well. Now I know a lot of people will think that what I'm doing is stupid and crazy and kind of mentally sick. And that I will gain all the weight back. But to me it makes perfect sence. It's not the first time I've done it and it allways works. After I have redused the 15-20 kilos I want to loose, i will calkulate a diet and a work out routine that will make me consume and burn the same amount of calories everyday, in order to not gain the weight again.
Having control of my looks is very important to me, and looking so out of shape is completely heart braking. I'm also in really bad shape training-wise. The body goes through huge changes during a pregnancy, and during the last three months you can't really move around to much. When the baby is newborn you won't have time to think about working out. So I realized one day that I'm loosing my breath by changing the bed... So I can't really just run to the gym and start working that threadmill. I would last 2 minutes.. That's why I'm taking a shortcut using my crazy diet and trying to get my cardio going.. I know not eating won't allow me to get in good shape or build any muscles, but that's really not my priority at the moment.
So today I walked around with my three-wheeled baggy in the goddamn new snow, which got me sweating forreal. Later I did pilates, before I just started dancing around and doing any kind of moves that came to my mind, just to keep the body moving. I jumped down from times to times and did pull ups. In the evening I ate my carrot. The only time I can actually feel the hunger is in the night. It's really hard to sleep on an empty stoumach. I keep drinking plenty water but that makes me have to run to the toilet constantly. So I just watch my movie and klench my teeth. Squeezing my hated stoumach fat makes me absolutely not think about eating! I couldn't imagine.. The real pain of diet is not actually the kind of emptyness you feel in your stoumach, it's the headaches, fatigue, moodswings and trouble consentrating that comes later on. But I can handle it. The norwegian WW2 heroes of telemark are my heroes. They walked for weeks on ski and hardly ate, and then camped out in huts for months eating rain moss they found under the snow.. They lost a lot of weight, unwillingly. The body is created to handle this kind of treatment, that's why we store the fat in the first place.
I don't have a scale to check my weight. Maybe I'll try to find a cheap one, how much does one cost anyway? I've never been big on checking my weight, I prefer checking my reflection, it tells me more about how I look than a number. But now it would be interesting to see.
fredag 2. september 2011
Animal Printed Pillows
It's just resently that I been starting to digg animal prints. When I was a little girl my friend's mom had it everywhere in her apartment. Also, the air in the apartment was heavy with perfume, and the mother's face was heavy with make up. And both my friend and her mother was not very nice. So most of my life, everytime I've seen the animal print, I've connected it with that memory. But now that it has become fashion I've started seeing it with new eyes. I've allso been hooked on the series "Jerseylicious" and Olivia Sharpe's love for the animal print has somehow inspired me (I like her style) to change my views.
I've been living in my apartment for 5 months, and there's a lot of thing I want to do with the interior to make it look really personal. It's a one-room apartmet, but it have a doorless door-opening beteween the kitchen and livingroom. In the livingroom is my big, white sprinkle bed, together with my baby bed, nursing tabe, wardrobe closet, sofa, table, TV and all that. So it's like a bedroom and livingroom together.
My plan was to put black and red curtains in the doorless door opening, and matching it with black bed cover and big red pillows for the bed. But I've changed my mind and want more animal prints in it. In my city is not too much different stores to choose between, so I'm allways looking for the things I need on the internet.
So this is some pillows that I found:
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B002TJD2FA/ref=asc_df_B002TJD2FA1689143?smid=A2ASMT4ZZPHPBN&tag=shopzilla_mp_1185-20&linkCode=asn&creative=395105&creativeASIN=B002TJD2FA
Definately not! What about you?
http://www.visionbedding.com/leopard-print-themed-pillows.php
this page really have everything
Ok, so I've never actually baught anything from the internet yet. But I'm going to buy one of these in a few days, and when I get them I'll share the experience with you!
I've been living in my apartment for 5 months, and there's a lot of thing I want to do with the interior to make it look really personal. It's a one-room apartmet, but it have a doorless door-opening beteween the kitchen and livingroom. In the livingroom is my big, white sprinkle bed, together with my baby bed, nursing tabe, wardrobe closet, sofa, table, TV and all that. So it's like a bedroom and livingroom together.
My plan was to put black and red curtains in the doorless door opening, and matching it with black bed cover and big red pillows for the bed. But I've changed my mind and want more animal prints in it. In my city is not too much different stores to choose between, so I'm allways looking for the things I need on the internet.
So this is some pillows that I found:
http://www.overstock.com/Home-Garden/Zebra-Print-Throw-Pillows-Set-of-2/5222747/product.html?cid=209797&fp=F&TRACK=CSEShopzilla&mr:referralID=2faa4deb-d571-11e0-be22-001b2166becc
They are really nice, I am definately going to buy these two. They are not to expencive too.I'm going to mix big and small and I want both zebra and cheeta prints.
These are nice too, from the same web page.
http://www.albeebaby.com/glenna-jean-tanzania-rectangular-cheetah-print-pillow.html
I want plenty plenty in different sizes. I allso want some big pillows in brown or red, and I don't need the bed cover to be animal printed if I have a lot of pillows that is.
http://www.beddingsheetsandlinens.com/decorative-pillows/zoe-decorative-9054-animals-decorative-pillow_g832513.html?af=1864&cse=1864
This one is really nice but WAY to expencive for me.
Snake Skin Pillow!!! Even though snake skin is IT this season, I don't think it's something I'd want in my bed ... But I wanted to show you guys. This the link: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B003BLX8DQ/ref=asc_df_B003BLX8DQ1689143?smid=A15ABLN7172PHN&tag=shopzilla_mp_1185-20&linkCode=asn&creative=395105&creativeASIN=B003BLX8DQ
Definately not! What about you?
http://www.visionbedding.com/leopard-print-themed-pillows.php
this page really have everything
Ok, so I've never actually baught anything from the internet yet. But I'm going to buy one of these in a few days, and when I get them I'll share the experience with you!
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